I started all over again with for my uni project. the hiking map. and I did get a lot done last night. So I should stick with it and work, work, work. but I am tired, we have a public holiday tomorrow and my friends are meeting tonight, does not sound good to work right? but then my dad is coming in two days and I don' know how long he will stay but I am looking forward to it and it will be fine.
I ordered some sunglasses but non of them overwhelmed me, if sunglasses are able to do that... another one should come friday, so we will see... should get some food into my stomache if I want to go out tonight and drink?! oh oh.

I'm frustrated. I have to do a project for uni, a hiking map. something I will never want to do for a living. seriously never. you scan a topological map, insert it in illustrator and then repaint everything just with the details you need. as in my case, hiking routes... boring! I'd rather learn how to program stuff and more fun things! argh.

Couch

I liked the Stockholm couch from ikea a long time now and my Swedish babysitter family here in Berlin did use to have one of them and I had quite a bit of time lying or sleeping on it and it is super comfortable and looks so good.
My boyfriend is into leather and this might be kind of a good combination but who knows what the future will bring...

it has been a while and it might be a while again too.
a whole month has gone. and a lot has happened...
I might just use a swedish list, translated into english and maybe it will help...

10 things I like:
spring in Berlin
I booked my flight to Australia
my new friend Hanna and the fact that she just lives 6min by bike away
my wonderful La Sardinia Camera and all those amasing pictures
buttercup flowers, long lasting flowers make me happy
instagram, addiction
babysitting Isa, the most happy little girl in the world
waking up from kisses
books
my cameras

9 things I don't like:
how death tears us apart
messy flatmates
my work at the cafe
storms and lightnings
allergic reactions
count money
being paranoid
dog-ears!!!
smoking in bars and clubs

8 blogs  I started following:
absolutlisen
beattielanser
brookeholm
finelittleday
theredthreadblog
craft.tutsplus
floras
Frankie

7 things I want to do in the future:
have a nice beautiful veggie garden
been to every continent
finish my BA and MA
visit Edinburgh
drive around Australia
write a book
sell a pice of art done by me

6 things I am afraid of:
being left alone
become a bad person
to one day look back and not like my life
to loose people I love/care about
become boring
depression

5 places I like being at:
Midsommar somewhere in Sweden
close to the sea
deep into snow
besides my byfriend in bed
bookshops

4 words describing me:
literate
friendly
creative
lazy

3 things I am looking forward to:
flying to Australia in less then 34 days and seeing my boyfriend and Florence and everyone else!
my birthday, in winter for the first time this year
great food and Espresso Martinis

2 good movies:
the perks of being a wallflower
the eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

One good song:
Autre ne Veut: play by play

WTH

monday is almost over and I am so exhausted. I had an exam today and a presentation and well, let's just say it is over and I am happy about that. Neither did go as it should but it is over, woop.
At the same time, my new semester started and it just feels too much already. I only have three courses but they are compressed into two months, so it is a lot going on here... And in every course we have lessons and exercises and exams and presentations and projects and handinds too. so, just a lot.

But let's forget about this for a minuite. It is waffel day in sweden today and I might bake some for dinner tonigt, or rather something "normal"? but I am leaving on thursday morning to visit my best friend and I have almost nothing in my fridge, as usual... we will see. I'm out.

:(

I'm trying to sleep but I'm just moving around in my bed. Can't find the right position to fall asleep in even thou my eyes hurt from crying and a lack of sleep. I don't like those moments and situation when most of what is going to happen is unknown. I love having plans and almost a plan about the next half year. About what will happen and when and of course everything planned and approved. But right now I have no clue where I will be from June to October and it is killing me. I hate waiting and not being able to make actions :( And I freaking miss my boyfriend and need him right now...

crah test dummy needed?

So. I should study but instead I am lying in bed with a headache und everything is crashing it seems like. I still dont have a clue where I am going to do my internship from June and it is killing me. I need to buy a flight ticket if I do it in Australia but I don't have the money right now. Nor a place. And this exam tomorrow. Never been so blank for an exam ever. This is going to fail. But, I might not care. I don't know. I just want it to be next week. All the stress would be over by then. and we still don't know what is happening about the Lacrosse Game on sunday. Wooph. over and out.