Its not easy to say good bye.
I'm a distant kind of person. It takes some time to get friends with me and even longer to be close to me. And then I'm not going to let you go. At least as long as you're nice to me and treat me as I treat you which is always the reason why my friendships end cause I always put more into it then others and if then a friend is leaving town it is no good, if a friend then is even leaving country and Europe it is getting worse.
So today a close friend told me he is going back to his home country, stupid Latin Americans. I'm sad and angry and disappointed and I can do nothing :( I hope he made the right decision and even if not I will support him and be a good friend that's all I can do right now.

woulnd't say no to for Christmas...

Le Specs Cosmic String Sunglasses

Bohemia Boho Briefcase maybe in mandarine maybe in absinthe, mustard or cocoa

as usual a kitchen aid :)

this scarf from asos.com

the diana Mini Latitude edition camera 

an old typewriter 

a nice ring like this one maybe?

a diamond shaped necklace like this one but maybe in gold

maybe I need a gold watch for my collection? wouldn't mind...

already looking for a nice dress to wear at my sisters wedding but this might be too much... 

I want something like this to put my teapots on there to keep the tea warmer for longer (not this one in particular but something like this but better looking)

this book in swedish and as an e-book version please.

a good tripod to use with my Canon, one where you can have the connection part between tripod and camera on the camera and really quick get the camera on the tripod and off again!

this 35mm back for my diana...

this book.

and I could probably go on and on and on...

But most for Christmas I wish for this year is good company, a great trip in Australia, meeting heaps of new interesting people, a great internship place, try new food, eat a ripe mango, see great landscapes, be able to talk to my family on christmas eve, be loved.

Just a minute in November

watching... Grand Designs Australia, New Girl, Modern Family, Parenthood, Grey's anatomy, Girls...

Eating... mostly cheap, trying to keep my money together for my trip to Australia, and yes, saving money for food, so it's toast or pasta, nothing fancy as sushi...

Working on... too much uni projects right now, have to get so much done before december, thinking about christmas presents, writing too many to do lists, trying to get out of my cold and start running again (halfmaraton in april!)

Looking forward to... being finally together with my boyfriend again, after 150 days apart. I do need to see him sooner than later cause this being apart situation right now freaks me out and we've been arguing too much lately :/

listening to... a lot of melancholy music but also a lot of Bodi Bill for motivation!


got this list from here

Recent moments from uni

I'm still home alone. I thought at least one of my flatmates would be back by now but no :( so I spend the day on the sofa with a lot of hot lemons with honey, gingerbread and the tv the whole time. Watching my every Sunday crime movie and blowing my nose constantly. I'm not going to my English grammar class tomorrow but to my shift at work, 8 hours, all about the money.
Now I'm off to sleep!
Only 430 hours until my plane leaves! Getting pretty excited! And still so much to do but Wednesday I'm off from uni so hopefully I get a lot done that day!

Sunday breakfast the way it always should be, just not alone!

I feel good. I did a work for uni which is due end of january! whops! Now I only need some pictures from the Grampians National Park and get one of my flatmates to make a good looking peace of art our of it, done!
Just wondering, why did I start with the work I have to hand in the latest? So many other projects are due before which I haven't started with yet... Bad time management!

wouldnt mind getting this beauty for christmas...

second last weekend in Berlin 2012

as the title says... I worked yesterday and then just spend the night in front of the tv with homemade ice-cream, raspberry and liquroce. so good. yes, it was my dinner.
Today I woke up in a empty flat, I am alone and it does not feel good at all. This flat is too big. For one person. So far three different postmen rang on the door to bring stuff. Got a dress I ordered but I am going to send it back. It looks as if I am wearing a potatoebag... not nice at all.

I'm thinking about christmas presents and what to get everyone. I already decided to bring back presents from Australia to my family instead of now buying stuff. But still some things to bring to Australia to I have to get. And there are still some mails I have to answer and some other things to do...

work, uni, doctors and a bit of other stuff...
got my international student identity card, so a new thing done from my long to do list before Australia!
went for a 40 min run with one of my flatmates.
got 3 other ones to sign up for the run (great!)
have uni tomorrow at 10 (skipping the 8 o'clock thing, as usual...), havn't done any homework for that (and we had a lot to do), have two boring english classes too...

so, I have private healthcare here in germany which some people think is better and it is probably but most people argue because they think you are better treated by doctors and in hospital but you're just not! I had an appointment at 16:30 today and it was not before 17:43 that they called my name up!!! and then the whole thing didn't last until 18:00 and the bill is over 202 euros! thats just ridiculous! I don't know about the money but the time I had to wait! So so stupid!

Another thing which is bothering me right now is money. I do have saved quite a lot right now but most of the money will be spent in Australia for either now my six week long trip or needed during my internship there which starts in june next year but still. I do need new stuff once in a while. right now I am looking for a new pair of jeans cause the latest ones I bought from H&M on sale for 5 € just happend to become too big... I don't understand how this is still happening. and I hate it. Last week I wanted to give blood but the refused to because I didnt weight enough. Stupid. And I don't eat healthy or regular or what ever... I don't eat junk food but still, when I eat I do eat a lot. I talked about this today with one of my flatmates how my allergies and stuff are good and bad in the same way. Good because I do have to check what I am eating and that's why I don't buy much processed food nor heaps of dairy things or sweets but bad because I have to spent a lot of money for food and sometimes it is quite hard to find something to eat for me which depresses me too. Argh. I wish I had no allergies. And now the orange time started again, how I hate it. my skin started to look like if I were 13 again and it is just not fun at all. It is seriously going on my nerves and there is nothing to do about this allergy because how should I be able to skip oranges, or more Limonene's, it is not possible! it is almost everywhere! Hate, hate, hate it. I do have to take of the skin of most of all fruit and veggies so I can be sure that there is less Limonene's on them now and having people around eating oranges is just a pain. I start to feel dizzy and my skin turns red and itchy too.

Oh I could go on and on and on...

Pancakes Australian style with fresh lemon and sugar!

Älskade Sverige.

Oh I've been missing Sweden lately so so much. And now that it is almost christmas even more. I miss all the snow and the christmas feeling, and open fires and so much more. Like the traditional drink Julmust which you drink in sweden around christmas, and I want Lussekatter, to bake them myself I need Saffron (which is a bit expensive here in Germany and not the same good quality as in sweden) and I miss the best kladdkaka with almond so much. It is a simple chocolate cake which I use to always bake but when you buy it from a special brand with the almonds inside, it is just so much better! and I can eat a whole one all by myself... And pepparkakor and kola... :( and no sweden trip is planned any time soon, not even soonish... not at all... Buhuhu :'(

my sisters fiancés former workplace burned down. I've seen this on national tv someday and been quite shocked. friends who live close there had to leave their houses for some days. but lucky only the carpenters shop burned down. my dad got woken up in the night from fire workers who needed his help with some statics and architecture things...

I do love my flat and I do love my flatmates. What I don't like is hair left in the drain, not proper cleaned dishes, doing the flatwork lazy style, letting everything look really messy... Oh I could go on and on and on... Right now I wish I could live by my self. With no one to take care of. But I do like company. And this stressless life wont last for ever.

saturday.

today was kind a waste of time. I got up, had breakfast and showered and made my way to my hairdresser where you take a number and then wait until it is your turn. they were up to 73 and I had the 102 so I figured that it wouldn't do much harm if I have a look in the shops instead of sitting and waiting there. So I went to different shops and looked for a bikini, but, yes, I am too late for that. Got really strange looks from the people in shops haha. Weather was shit today too and it was raining and windy and there was me looking for a bikini... Well, when I got back to my hairdresser the number was up to 108 :/ damn. Got a new number 120, got coffee and finally got my hair cut. so needed! Oh what a great feeling to have the fringe shorter again. Well. I finally bought a new wallet or something for my cards and money. a lovely brown leather bag from COS and two nice golden letter rings from UO. bought a new brush for my hair and now I'm drinking ice cold Martini and am watching Girls and am still undecided if I should go out tonight or not...?!

25 days and 22 hours left until my first plane leaves whoop!

Sooooooon !!!

so the exam is over and I had my last day of uni today for this week, but work is waiting for me... tomorrow 5,5 hours at university and then 4 more hours at the cafe and then on friday a 7 hour shift at the cafe again...
I do feel a bit frustrated at the moment with what is going on in uni and work and social life...
One thing which was good today, added fresh lemon into my zucchini-cream-pasta-sauce which was delicious.
one thing which was rather bad, eating Sweetie (some strange fruit from israel) and getting an allergic reaction, whoop! no. So my face does look like I'm a teenager with really bad skin and my arms are reddish and itshy everywhere... wonderful. not.
well, good night.

:/ I'm sitting here on my desk and try to study but it is not going well. I have all the important things in one document and its 6 pages long :/ how am I supposed to get all that into my head? until tomorrow 10 am? why didn't I start earlier, as usual... I'm always too late... and how do you get only the important stuff into your head? anyway. I'm going to make dinner now. potatoes and violet carrots in the oven and some fish out of the frying pan... oh how I miss my boyfriend cooking dinner for me, not long now! 31 days and 13,5 hours and I'm there!

Halloween!

Celebrating a summer Christmas still freaks me out a little bit. I want snow and wearing tights and gloves and hot tea and biscuits and going to Christmas markets with snow in your hair and all that... But at the same time I can wait any longer until I finally arrive in Melbourne and be able to see my boyfriend again. I'm so sick of being apart right now. It freaks me out right now. And the time difference right now (10hours) is not helping at all. I have so much going on with uni and work and our Halloween party on Saturday and n exam on Tuesday and other trouble at uni and all the worry about money and visa and master studies and degrees and grades and I wish I could just burn my return ticket and stay in my boyfriends arms for ever...

Best flatmates ever!